Wake up 8 to wait for ur sms.
Longed to see u.
But at e same time i m scare.
Spend 3hrs + together at ur place.
It was a sweet one , watch u play game , lean on ur shoulder, lie on ur chest, everything was so sweet.
Thanks for e 2 "kisses".
Went to Lot 1 wif him.
Nothing much , headed to Sun Plaza after tat.
I enjoyed e last part before we meet ur fren.
I enjoyed u being by my side , lie my head on ur leg , i like it so much.
But time passed fast and it was 6 haiis.
When u look into my eyes, i m scared.
Donno y.
Everything is juz so sweet.
But all past le.
Is time to let go.
I promised i will move on, and i will though i don bear to.
But
If now u ask me stay , i will. u noe ?
Wonder hw i can start treat u as fren.
I will miss ur EVERYTHING.
Ur hugs , kisses , smell , smile , look , and ur bed.
Y u so cruel , left me alone living my days?
Tonight i will be lonely again.
Y make ur life so complicated , dar?
Start afresh wif me mah..haiis

Last time..
Realli don bear.
Just parted not long but i started to miss u so much.
Y are there always so many gals around u?
Y cant u juz stay wif me ?
Y make things so complicated?
Simple is Happiness.
Do u noe today is e last time?
If u noe , will there be a difference?
Y cant u give me a chance when i make a mistake?
Simply don understand.
I don wan juz be ur fren , i need u badly.
Tues onwards i realli donno hw to live on.

Went to Orchard at 6 to meet Joce & Stanley they all.
Had dinner at Long John.
Enjoyed. They keep say jokes n funny things which make me laugh.
Going out wif them seemed weird , cos i don talk much but i realli enjoyed , will make me laugh at times.
Thanks , Frens.

Sunday..

Family day ?

Went out wif mummy & meimei instead of someone else.

Rejected him again. I also donno y.

Haiis..

Went IMM.

Ben lai veri happy de but halfway through..

Moody again.

Keep quiet on my journey back.

Mum realised and was wondering y.

Sry mum.

But i hate it when she mention him.

So i shouted at her ask her not to say anymore.

Feel bad.

Tiring day..
Eric came my hse today, say he wanna come hide awhile lols to avoid someone?
Accompanied him until my didi come back den i went out to meet Jasmine and her fren.
Feel so pai seh make them waited.
Was sms-ing wif Aaron and Musico's cousin.
Aaron seemed angry , make him waited me e whole morning.
Asked me to go K-Box , i say ok but end up i go out wif Jasmine.
Actually not i promised le but didnt go, i thought we r going wif his frens so i agree but end up he tell me wif him alone , i feel it will be weird so i... sms him in e afternoon tell him i don wan go.
Went to Far East >.< sian.
First thing Jasmine do was to go shop for a new pair of shoes cos her leg pain lols.
Went to so many shops before she found e one she wan and is comfortable de.
Asked me to do hair extention wif her lols.
I didnt and i went off early. Didnt get to see hw she looked like after e extention.
Went off early to go Bishan to meet Angeline (Musico)'s cousin for dinner.
Pai seh lor i alighted 2 bus stop before e one i should alight lols. Make him walked down e road to find me. Asked musico to come along too but she was sleeping like a pig lols.
We walked a long way before we get to eat lols.
After dinner, i went home.
Needed to meet my parents to go for house viewing.
Sad tat i had to move hse.
We decided to buy e hse after e 3rd viewing, pay deposite le 3k wor..
Actually i don realli like e hse but no choice.
Will be moving in on e last day of Nov.
I will miss Sembawang lols.
Back to Yishun sian.

He..
He smsed me in e morning 4+
Say he cant sms me for today.
I didnt reply donno wat to reply him,haiis.
Knowing he wont sms me, i didnt care my hp for e whole day
Until 12am..
I took a look at my phone
Saw his sms , i was happy , seriously.
Replied him , sms for awhile den he went to bed.
Still got a bit of wanna sms wif him de feeling
But i say " night" instead, knowing tat tml he got guard duty.
I m looking forward to monday.
Erm.. stop here le , going watch video le.
Night.

3 more days.
I m hurted last night, so deeply.
No one hurts me.
I hurt myself.
I m silly.
Like a fool.
I was so naive to think tat u still love me , will come back , i m really so so naive.
When i called u and knew tat u were talking on e phone,
It breaks my heart.
Y? was e first thing i asked myself.
Whatever it is, i m realli tired out.
I hate e high n low feeling.
When high up , i fall.
When low, it goes up again.
Up n down , i cant endure.
I wan to wait.
I still love.
I still feel hope.
But i m tired le.
Now i prefer e way if u love me, woo me again. LOL
This time i m realli letting go.
Monday shall be e last time.
Tuesday will be a new start.
I will miss u but i will curb it.
Start afresh !!!
U like e lifestyle u having now ?
Ur life without me is ok ?
I think i got to leave u.
Cos i m EXTRA.
Last time i feel everything is worth it
Now i feel silly.
No matter wat i do , u wont return le.
Love is not there anymore, i understood.
FRIENDS? We shall be.
Everything ended. Stop here.
I m going to bury u in my heart.

Played basketball last night wif Chai Gek , Kok Wei , Jie Xian , Nel , Ding Jie, Teck Huat and William. Nelson keep bully me , snatched my ball. WTF. LOL.
Went for dinner at 10+ LOL at Blk 313.
Me and Nelson ate alot.
Actually i m not hungry at all , cos i was not happy e whole night but i choose to eat alot to make myself feel better? Torturing myself ? I donno.
Feel no point to everything i do.
Life is abt wat?
I should be happy and do wat i wanna to.
But y is it tat wat i wanna do don make me feel happy LOL?
Anyway, thanks Nelson for sending me home , until 6th storey.

Labels: Ended.

Wed went for dian xin in e morning , took some pictures of boy.
He is so cute, onli wanna to drink e ice water.
Had almond mango, my mum say try it cos nv try before but, seriously it sucks , if u go "pin si" don order tat.

Had dinner wif Nelson tat night and went to Kok Wei's hse to slack.
Nel n Kok Wei played KOF, i gt nth to do so logged in Audition.
Suddenly saw him online , i was shocked.
Nelson talked alot of senses to me.
I heard all.
I know wat u r trying to say.
But prob is , i donno hw to let go, haiis.
Everytime i wan to let go , tell myself not to care abt him anymore,
Something pulled me back?
His everything make me turned my head back.
Is hard to make e first move.
I donno hw to not talk to him , not to meet him.
Everytime i tell myself this shall be e last time i m gonna meet him,
But i cant bear to go everytime after i met him.
5 more days.
I m waiting.
Can u see ? Can u hear? Can u feel?
No matter hw hard i try to make myself tired juz to not think of u, i will think.
No matter hw hard i try to treat u as a fren, i juz cant. I tried to occupy my time , go out till late night , hoping to make myself tired so tat i will straight go to bed when reached home , but still i will think of u , sometimes not when i reached home but e next day morning.

Ytd..
Didnt go out at all.
Rot at home e whole day.
Until night ,
I called him.
Chatted..
He promised to go to e doctor wif me on mon night when he's out.
This week will be a long week..
Cos u r not coming out on fri or sat,
But is monday.
Hope to meet u on monday's morning.
IF u r willing to.
I m still sad.
After hanging up ,
I choose to slp early juz like u r.
So i went to bed at 11 ^^
Hope to meet u in lalaland but didnt.
Jasmine called in e middle of e night 03:21 am.
Had a talk until 5:30 am
I think of u.
Know u wake up le
So i smsed u.
I wanted to send "Morning , Dar"
But i noe i cant. Though u r still my dar in my heart but i think u will mind if i realli call u dar bah. I miss calling u dar.
Surprised to receive ur sms at 6+.
I was abt to go back to slp but don bear to when i saw ur msg.
I m greedy.
I don wan juz to be by ur side , like a fren or wat.
I wan to be ur xinyi.
I wan to be ur dear.
I wan to be ur one n only, ur gf.
Though things had happened , had changed but my love for u didnt. It will onli be deeper and not lesser. We can start afresh, realli, if onli u say "yes".
U told me not now, i will rmb it. I will wait.
Move on and wait.
I m back to sqaure one.
Back to loving u deeper.
I thought e love starts to fade last week
But i realised nw tat it is not fading , but getting deeper.
Crazy over u.
6days more before i can see u again.
I MISS YOU.
Realli miss u till i cant even don think of u for a moment.
No matter wat i do , i juz think of u.
When i eat , i wonder if u eat le mah?
When i m slacking, i wonder if u r having tough trainings?
When i watch tv , i wonder if u wanna watch e show too?
Everything has got to do wif u.
Juz cant get u off my mind.
I realised there is nothing i can do now,
EXCEPT waiting for u to come out.
I wanna to do something to kill time but everything tat has nothing got to do wif u don interest me at all.
I can onli wait, wait , wait.
Nothing but WAITING.
Wait for u to come out.
Wait for u for 2years.
Wait for u to finish ur NS.
Wait for u to come back.
Wait for u to patch wif me.
Wait for u to hug me.
Wait for u to say u love me.
SHAG..
This is wat my life is right now.
How i wish time can fly..
Make monday be tml.
Regretted alot of things but i noe time cant turn back , i can onli hope for e better to come.
Nothing is perfect without u. Seriously.
Dar..
Love is not abt finding someone who u can live wif, but finding someone u cant live without.
And to me ,
Tat's u , who i can live without.
Missing u is e onli thing tat occupy my mind now.
Nel tell me love is abt seeing e person u love is happy.
Is it ? Dar?
If u r happy , i should let u go ?
Can i do it ?
Anyways, Jiayou for training , ok?
I m always wif u.

Labels: Can u feel my pain ?

Sat..
I realli enjoyed.
Wif u at fren hse Mahjong.
I was sad , super sad when u told me abt it.
But i hold back my tears.
I m glad u told me thanks.
U still care for me.
U still respect me.
U noe?
Hw i wish all never happened..
Is this a test?
Have i passed?
E ride from tampines to YCK is long I was sad but glad to have u by my side.
When i was going to meet u , I tell myself i have to treat u as a fren.
I did.
Went back to ur hse, I realli don feel like going home.
But i meet someone le
So i forced myself to leave and let u have a gd slp.
U sure tired bah..
rest well.

Sunday 21st Sept
U noe today is wat date?
U noe we should be celebrating ?
I noe it was me who spoiled this.
But i realli wan u back.
Went to ur hse at 1+
Lean on ur leg at e living room, watching tv.
I was shocked when u hugged me.
But i love e feeling, seriously.
U realli for so long nv hugged me so tight le.
I feel e love.
I feel hw u feel towards me.
Don deny ur feelings for me.
U noe y i agree to go lan instead movie?
I noe u so long nv go lan le ^^
I wan to do things wif u to make u happy n not unwilling de.
Sorry
In e night i hold ur call.
But i realli didnt hide anything from u.
Serious.
U still e most important to me right now.
Don angry. ok?
I give u sometime to cool down bah.
I don mean to be demanding,sry.
Donno when is ur next book out,
But i will be waiting for u.
I juz wan u back.
Wat is holding u back?
If need time , i willing to wait.
I m realli crazy over u.
In e middle of e night,
I miss ur hugs
I miss ur kisses
I miss ur smile.
I hope i m e one who is always on ur mind 24/7.
Don mean it when u say u promised wont call me anymore.
Cos i realli need u badly.
If u read all these one day,
U will realised i m still here.
I m trying to move on but still here.
I am waiting for u to call me,when u cooled down.

Labels: u r e most important.

Just woke up..
Still sleepy.
Had a long night yesterday.
I know i cant stay at home for e lonely night.
So i went out.
Went to Far East & Cine wif Joce and her frens.
Shopped for sometime and walk to PS.
Accompanied Joce to Kovan to collect her bag n shirt.
Joce keep say sry sry make u come so far.
HAHAS actually i don mind , realli..
Didnt go home.
Went to somewhere else to slacked e whole night until 4:50am
It was realli a LONG night.
Seriously , i HACK CARE le.
I realised all e more i care , e more hurt n pain i gain at e end of e day.
When u called me , i was like HAPPY dao yao si.
But u called to ask me something not cos u miss me.
Haiis , throughout e night,
Not another sms or call from u.
I feel so despair ?
Till even hp no batt i also hack care le cos i noe u wont call at all.
I nv decieve myself this time round.
I realli wish to watch "Mirrors" wif u.
But if u had already watched it despite u promised me,
Den i wont want to watch anymore.
Is ok le.
I wonder if this time i realli see e end of everything?
I hope i did.
Sudddenly , got e feeling of giving up.
It takes two hands to clap.
If i do so much but e other party don feel a thing,
Nothing will happen lor.
I didnt go home also cos of u.
When u book out , i will think n think n think.
Think this will go on for a period of time.
Luckily i still got someone to accompany me.
Thanks frens.
I m not going to be so soft-hearted.

Labels: Giving Up.

Had been thinking and thinking last night after i reached home.
Woke up at 11+
Thinking of him again :(
Went online to kill time.
Joce show me someone's blog.
It was nice.
But somehow,
I think of her again.
I miss her too.
So long nv miss her already.
But now i feel so sad,
Why did she leave me too?
Why?
If she is still around,
I will be fine,
I will be happier,
I will move on,
And things wont be e same.
Regretted everything.
ONLI nv regret to know him n fallen for him.
But regretted y i make e wrong decision 2yr ago and 2 yr later choose to break.
SHAG..
Why is everyone leaving me?
I wonder hw i m going to survive through.
Wonder hw i m going to spend my time tonight not to think of him..
Without him , everything seemed so wrong.
Dar..
U r always my Dar.
One & Only.
Willl u come and meet me tonight?
Will u call me tonight?
Will u make miracles happen tonight?
Though i noe tat u r going out tonight , i realli wish u will come and meet me.
I miss u so..
Realli wish to see u.
I m so afraid u don love me anymore.
Pls think of me no matter who u wif , where u are, & wat u r doin.
I wish i m still e most important person in ur life right now.

Lastly, Thanks Stanley.
He brighten up my day ytd by talking to me
Maybe cos he make me feel tat there is still hope
And teach me wat to do.
I m glad to have a fren like him.
I will follow his advices and face e reality if he realli don love me anymore.
Going out to slack soon.
Had to prepare. Bye.

Labels: Thinking of him and her.

Can anyone help me by teaching me wat to do??
I was still alright after talking to u on phone.
I m glad u told me hw u feel.
But wat does this mean?
Hope or No Hope?
I understand wat u mean.
Thanks for letting me noe.
I m trying to find a way to break e barrier between us.
Break e wall u build against me.
I know y u do this.
Is human nature.
If u get hurt by someone so deeply , u will eventually build a wall against e someone so tat u wont get hurt by e person again.
But
My dar
I wont hurt u again, i promised.
I m realli realli so sry tat i hurted u.
But tat night, when u r sad , i was sad too.
If u havent given up me ,
Let's try.
I want u back.
Don worry.
I will find ways to break e wall or barrier or watsoever tat is between us.
Will try and make u feel tat i love u deeply
Hope by e time u will be able to sense it and restart wif me.
If anyone noe hw to help me , pls teach me thanks ^^

I m talking to him now.

While updating my blog.

Smsed him juz nw.

Ask him y he called me in e morning.

He say is cos he gt some free time in e morning so call me to chit chat.

EEE.. y didnt i wake up?

But is ok lah. Haiis.

Though he smsing while talking to me

But i was glad tat he willing to secretly chat wif mi on e phone?

Do i still hav a place in ur heart , i wonder?

It has been 5 days.
Tat night..
I told myself
Is time to let go.
I tried.
But still i cant do it.
Everyone tell me to wait and say,
If u meant to be mine , u will returned one day.
But
You noe mah?
I m scared.
I broke this r/s.
I should do something to get it back.
I cant sit here and wait for miracles.
Miracles is need to be created de.
I don wan to lose or giv up if i haven been told tat i lost.
I wan to fight for u, for my happiness.
Just simply donno y..
U don wan to love me.. WHY ?
Last night after talking to Joce, i spend sometime thinking.
While talking to her , i kept recalled our past.
E happiness we once had.
E love u gave me.
How i wished time can bring me back.
Recalled e day u went in NS
Hey i almost cry.
I wrote to u everyday abt wat was going on in my life outside here while i was waiting for u.
I took it out and read.
Everything seemed to be like YESTERDAY.
E first time i saw u botak when u book out..
I remembered so clearly.
I missed u so terribly tat time.
U noe mah?
Sat morning when i sleep in ur arms,
I realli sleep so well is e 1st time i sleep so well ever since we break.
I miss ur hugs.
I miss ur kisses.
I miss our days.
I miss our PAST.
I miss you.
Will u come back?
Will u love me again?
Will u think of me?
Will u think of our PAST?
Will u miss me NOW?
Will u be able to forgive me & give me , u and our future 1 last chance?
Realli , everything lies in u.
If u willing to try n give , NOTHING is IMPOSSIBLE de, dar..
My dar
My you
Where u go?
Why leave me alone , shedding tears in e night?
I don wan "cheng jing yong you".
I wan de is "tian chang de jiu".
I m sry.
Sry tat i hurted u deep.
Face e hurt.
Face e truth.
Face urself
Face ur heart.
I feel u r forcing urself to avoid.
Avoid e pain n hurt i caused u to suffer.
Don leave me alone.
Don take away e love u have for me.
Turn back.
Look at me.
I still here.
Waiting..

Haiis..
Y sleep till 11+ today ?
Normally sure woke up at 8+ 9 de
When i woke up and saw ur missed call
I was like.. F3
Why didnt i woke up early?
Why i turn to silent?
But i guessed u called me gt reason de.
Surely not to chit chat wif me nia.
I m silly to think so much.

Dinner wif Nelson & Ding Jie last night at KFC.
WA.. regretted eating. So fattening lor.HAHA
Met XY and we 3 had a talk under a block.
Until..
I need e toilet den bo bian we go coffee shop.
Thanks Nel & XY
Accompanied me last night.
The KFC meal was NICE.

Labels: ILY

(Took these pictures of Boy in my bed when he didnt notice. So cute of him.)

Just now..
Went to AMK ITE.
Helped him to collect his cert and meet xy too. She helped me to transfer maple.
Yea.. can play maple le.
Hope by playing can help me kill time.
Went xy's hse , she helped me change blog skin.
Learn alot from her.
Was glad tat she accompanied me , make me wont think of other things and feel happier too.
Thanks xy.

Talked to cousins in e night.
They cheered me up. ^^
Actually i m ok le.
I will take a step by a step.
Everything will be fine.
U didnt call me , i waited.
But is ok.
I cant demand anything from u.
Time will heal.
Time will bring u back if we r meant to be tgt ^^
Bed time.

Yesterday
Sunday..
Day 2

Went out wif JS , Eric and Joce.
Tried not to think of him when i was in e train and i did it somehow.
But when we reached Orchard, I know he was at Orchard too so somehow thinking of him again.
So scare to see him, not cos i m afraid to face reality, is cos i realli don wan to see him.
We smsed each other. He is starting to realli treat me as a fren le and i hope i m trying to.
Wont be going his hse again.
Wont be wif him again.
Still so not used to it.
Have to learn.
We are like back to square one, back to 3yr ago how we r before we became a couple.
Is hard this time round. LOL
Tried to smile and let go.

Joce , Eric , JS and me.. we went shopping. Had Long John Silver.
Js buy 2 tops.
Eric mah i don rmb.
Joce buy a top too.
Something funny was Eric went to do e fake tattoo.
Took 3min to have it done.
Shopped until 9+
Had a tired day.
JS and me took train back to sembawang.
We had a talk. Thanks JS.
He called me at 10+. I didnt feel dao e vibration.
But when i noe, i called him back straight.
Still cant take it easy.
I smiled when chatting wif him.
JS say: i talk to u so long , u nv smile , a call from him u can smile le.
Ya. Silly me. Is FRIENDS le but i still cannot take it.

Someone had replaced me in ur heart bah.
I know u still love me so LITTLE. Haiis
I still hope one day u will come to realised everything.
U still don understand. Still angry?
Hope u will noe one day wat is realli happening and turn behind and look at me cos i m always behind u , waiting.
Waiting till e day i can walk away.
Missing u.
Pain

Labels: It hurts.

These few days had been hard for me..
Didnt blog cos gt no time to online.

Day 1
Sat..
Went and meet him early in e morning.
I knew wat was going on, and i m glad tat he told me.
Everything is over.
It hurts when he say out, but thanks him for telling me, waking me up.
I hope u r not angry wif me or dislike me, i asked for e last chance is cos i wanted u so much, regretted so much and doesnt wanna to giv up without trying to salavage this ended r/s.
I respect ur decision.
I hope i can treat u as a fren though is hard.
I still miss u so much.
I still want u so much.
I still wish to see u , hug u and kiss u so much.
Is realli hard to control my feelings for u.
I didnt meant to torture u by waking u up asking u to accompany me home but end up i don wan to go home. Is realli cos i miss u and wanna look at u so much till i don feel like going home or anywhere after i meet u. Never had this feeling before.
Losing u make me realised how important u were to me. Make me realised how much i love u.
Is everything over and never had a chance between us?
U told me now 100% no chance but in future u donno. Thanks for saying out but i still harbour hope cos u said in future u donno.
But i decided to giv up if i could. Treat it as no chances anymore.
Don wan to be sad again.
Don wan to be disappointed again.
People say: when u don have hope , there wont be disappointment.
I think this is realli e end of our story.
Tat night e kiss shall be e last.
I don wan to turn behind anymore if i could.
It hurts.

Labels: End of our love story.

Today.. 1month le. So fast.

Is ok. You noe i will still be waiting de. I will.
Just now called u cos wondering y u still haven get back ur phone.
Was surprised when it ring but sad too cos i wonder y didnt u sms or call me..
I guessed got reason de bah. Choose to trust u and wait.
Though already passed 11 le but i m waiting still.
I know u r tired of this r/s.
I know u wan to give up.
I know u wan to try another.
I know, i know, i realli know all.
Is ok, my dar.. i will wait.
Time will prove EVERYTHING.
My love for u.

Hope u will call, realli , i hope so.
Broke up 1 month le.
Pain for 1 month.
Cried for 1 month.
Waited for 1 month.
Realli hoped everything can go back to tat day , 1 month ago de tat day, so i can take back my words , trust u , love u and we will still be happy today.
But..
Is too late. I know.
Nvm.. i will try catch ur heart back before it falls into another de hand.
If (touchwood*) it falls into someone else's hand, i will also go chase after it.
Jiayou.
Wan an.

Missing You.


Didnt blog for 2days le ? These few days so tired and was sick so i didnt online.

Woke up today , thinking of him. He came into my mind straight after i woke up. Just like a kind of virus lol. 4 days le.. he should be back to camp now, field camp finished le ba.. wonder if he's alright. Really wonder y our relationship will end so easily ? I guess love juz come and goes ba.. IMY.

Nothing to blog these few days lol. Bye.

I'm SICK.. lol fever , sore throat and serious blocked nose which make me cant breathe well.. :( Had my busniess paper today. Was a tough one as i went without preparation. Feel so drowsy and unwell half way through e paper. Hope i can pass ?

Meet Yvonne in e afternoon. Ben lai wanna meet Joce go temple "bai bai" de but was cancelled last min. Had a chat wif Yvonne. She changed alot wor.. keep long hair le.. Thanks Yvonne.

Had been thinking ever since last night..Until Joce talked me out.. understand wat she mean but it was juz tat i don wan to do it ? don wanna face reality? i donno. It juz hurts.

Well.. I guess i noe wat to do le? I m going to try it for e sake of e both of us. It's hard but i will try.. I hope we can still talk , sms and meet i will try slowly to treat u as my fren. I promised. Thanks for all u did for me <3. It has been onli 1 day since we parted at Sembawang Mrt but i start to miss u le. Hope u r fine. Take care ok? Miss u so..much

Tml accounting paper. damn shit i donno alot of e topics lol.. So sleepy.. I think is due to e pill i taken juz now :) go rest le. wan an ~

Ytd stay over at his place.. Had a chat..I understand everything le.. But y am i still so blur lol? I was so regret. I make myself lose HIM. It hurts when i know everything and it hurts even more when..... I can only smile when i m wif him but now.. it seemed tat even wif him.. e smile i wear is also a fake one. Reality hurts so much tat i realli don wan to face it. Now wat shall i do ? Letting go or Waiting ? Fight for happiness? I m realli lost..

But i had a fun time wif him. This was e onli time we spend 24hours closely together not leaving each other even for a min.. it was juz so sweet. Like a dream..

Watched Cyborg She at Yishun Golden Village. It was a not bad show onli thing is quite blur.. keep travel through time, make me blur dao i don realli understand last part lol. Heng HY understand and explained to me F3. One thing i don understand.. why e show onli got one time slot which is morning 11:10am lol. Not feeling well now.. Update again tml bah.. go rest le.. Bye.

Yesterday was a tiring day.. Thur midnight helped eric wif his present till 2+am.. Fri woke up in e afternoon, melvin smsed me ask me go over sun plaza meet him.

Reached sun plaza , went NTUC wif joce , her fren , ZH , MEL and his gf to buy food for night's BBQ. After which we headed to mac to find Joce's frens, den all of them start to smoke.. i was e onli one who didnt smoke. lols.

Cab down to sembawang park at 5+. we were at pit 01 , it was so hot. Mel n gf start e fire but somehow e charcoal like gt prob.. cant start fire.. we tried for 2hrs still cannot LOL. E other pit already started eating while we are still trying to start e fire it was like..WTH lol.. Until 8 plus , Jun and JS went out and buy another packet of charcoal back and well they started a fire within 15min.

It has been a long time i didnt meet up wif so many sec fren at a time. It was fun. Stanley , Elaine , Tze Kang and me , we played "da lao er". Half way through Tze Kang say e song tat his hp is playing was a famous english song but.. LOL none of us knows who e singer was when he say out e singer's name. Elaine , me , Stanley and his gf we all say donno leh.. We were like.. huh question mark? Den Tze Kang was like huh ur donno? den he shouted over e other table and ask if anyone noe who is e singer den ZH shouted back saying he donno.. At that moment.. all of us laughed LOL it seemed like no one know lor. Tze Kang was like abit HOT and don believe tat no one know so he walked over and ask all of them. In e end no one knows except Joce. We laughed. It was like so funny lor...

We went back at abt 11+.. walking down e road.. Eric fell down. We were like..SHOCKED. He sprained his leg and there were some small injury on his arm..We then took e bus while Joce and frens took a cab. Had a long but fun day.

Thinking of him again as i walked home alone. Wonder if he sleep le or ? Reached home at 12. ^^ Joce.. i realli had a fun time , thanks for e BBQ .

Thanks Ronald :)
For helping me wif e background and everything.

If not for ur help , i wont be able to create a blog by myself lol.
Ha.. donno wat to write in my first post.

Come to e decision of creating this blog is simply cos i m too boring at home, don even noe wat to do when i on e com lol.

Recently alot of things happened and i was so lost. I didnt lose him. He is still wif me, everything still remains e same except... but i juz cant help feeling sad cos i make a silly decision and there is no turning back for me. I ruined e relationship myself. I hurted him and myself. But frens.. i m alright now. Hope by blogging can make me feel better and help me kill time too.

Aaaa.. donno wat to write le continue tml bah. ^^
Hope Joce tml's BBQ will be a success one !

Miss You So..

{♥} Happily Forever With Him
{♥} Go Chalet !
{♥} Lose Weight (10kg) =p !
{♥} A New Handphone.
{♥} A Long Break From Work
{♥} 0oxiino0 to be lvl 200 in maple.
{♥} To Go Genting Wif Dar.
{♥} Change a new job.
{♥} Celebrate my 21st birthday
{♥} Mum's Approval Of My R/S