Tuesday, June 8, 2010 ; 2:47 PM {♥}
I am back to blogging !
It has been super super long since i last blogged.
And wat's e reason behind it ?
No time ? i guess so.
I wonder if there is still anyone viewing my blog anot lol.
But tt is nt important , i come here jus to pen down my thoughts .
Time files.
It has been 85days since e day my beloved grandpa left me.
It has been hard for my granny and my family.
I can say tt i still live on , working , playing , slping and eating.
But as often as it is , i still miss him , dream of him.
I hasnt really accepted he is gone forever.
I still hoping to see him again , touch him again.
Actually i muz say , i regretted , i feel remorseful.
There are days where i can keep him company , visit him more , spend more time wif him.
Yet , i didnt.
I used to think tt he is still young , i still have alot of time wif him.
So i nv cherish , i realli nv cherish.
I spend more time on maple den on him.
I learnt from this painful incident , which lead me to cherish my family more.
I still nv really visit my grandmum , i only spend more time wif my family members.
Grandmum ? I wish to keep her company but.. i don like going over to her place.
My uncle's family is living wif my granny and youngest uncle.
Whenever i go down , i realised i will only get to see my granny doin e house chores , or even more busy den usual cos i m there.
I wanted to help but as u noe la , my granny surely wont wan me to help her much.
So wat is e point !!
Going down to see her busy , feeling heartache for her , nt being able to chat wif her much too.
I wanna to bring her over to my place for 1-2days , to help her relax , allow her to have some time to watch tv , being served by us and can get to gossip wif my mother. But is she willing to come over ? haiis.
Life hasnt been really gd for me.
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