Sunday, October 26, 2008 ; 7:47 PM {♥}
Now afk from maple to update blog.
Going papu ltr wif ex guild mate.
Feel so lonely nw.
As he is not here wif me.
We still meet everyday when he booked out.
Wonder who is he to me?
Dar? Ex?
Blur.
Fri i went to his hse and go lan.
Ytd he was at my hse for mahjong wif YL , Nel , Will & Ben.
They had mahjong at my hse while i was chionging my Sin. lols.
Ben & Will win.
After tat we went to Mac for supper?
My mummy went there too and saw all of us.
I walked away too when he say he wan to go home.
And left my mummy alone inside.
Walked wif him to Mrt station and parted off wif a kiss.
Talked on e phone immediately after we parted.
Feeling sad , donno y.
Cried after he hanged up.
Called another person to pei me talk.
Y things become this way ?
I always wondered.
Is it realli my fault?
Today meet him after i had buffet at my Tai Ma's birthday.
92th Birthday.
Came back to meet him but he seemed angry cos of e waiting.
Watch him play maple , we had our own time.
So comfortable not like ytd we barely talk.
Accompanied him to arcade after tat till 5pm.
He headed home to go somewhere else.
Talked wif him on e phone till he reached home.
He say he call back later but till nw still no news from him.
Muz be enjoying himself ba?
I often wonder.
Did he think of me when he is out wif others?
Or only when he is alone he will somehow think of me?
Feeling so lonely , tired and sick.
Nothing seemed meaningful.
U wont return le ba?
No matter hw much time i giv u to think?
No matter hw much effort i m putting in?
Had to play maple nw to numb myself from thinking.
Wat kind of life is this?
Yet i still chose to wait.
Until e limit i giv myself.
Still haven reach e limit so i m still struggling on.
I don wan to hav any regrets or rather "yi han" ?
I realli donno wat to do.
Anyway i heard from my aunt i will be starting work on tue.
Look forward to it.
A new environment.
Hope i will feel better.
Hmm.. go papu le.
Update again tml.
I'm yours & U're mine
