1 month had passed.
Is 21st again.

Spend time wif u was wat i wanted only.
Wif u around , everything is fine.
We got our ice chair finally on sat's night.

U told me..
U might be going out wif frens on Christmas Eve..
And asked me if it is alright.
I don wish to say is fine but i said so.
I don wan to force u or make things like this.
U have e freedom u longed for.
U told me it is not confirmed yet.
But i noe u r surely going..
Even though i wish u wont go after wat u said.
U told me too..
Not to go out if possible & don go till too late.
U asked me to take care of my health.
Well..
If only u can stay wif me , if only u are willing to spend e day wif me..
I wont go anywhere, u noe it.
But on this Christmas Eve..
U wanna to spend it wif someone else..
And sadly e person is not me..

Wat can i do nw?
Wat should i do nw?

I cried.
I pray to god.
Hope things will be like wat i wished for.
God.. Please grant my wish.

I noe i m selfish.
Love is selfish.
I don wish to lose u.
I don wish tat u will be going.
But should i ask u stay wif me when u already long ago choose to go..
I donno.
I realli donno.
Donno wat i should do..
Let go ? Be selfish ?

Can anyone teach me?

Happy monthsary dar..
3years 9months.

{♥} Happily Forever With Him
{♥} Go Chalet !
{♥} Lose Weight (10kg) =p !
{♥} A New Handphone.
{♥} A Long Break From Work
{♥} 0oxiino0 to be lvl 200 in maple.
{♥} To Go Genting Wif Dar.
{♥} Change a new job.
{♥} Celebrate my 21st birthday
{♥} Mum's Approval Of My R/S