Thursday, January 29, 2009 ; 1:54 PM {♥}
It has been weeks i nv update my blog.
Busy wif office work, bonus , pay for workers and claims.
Fri 23/1/09
Didnt report for work.
Went to perm my hair instead.
Dar was e first to see my new hairstyle.
He say not bad , but look like nv perm dao wor.
I left him alone in e arcade , while i went over to Ah Boy's hse.
I buy him a " Thomas & Friends" water bottle.
He don realli like to drink water.
So i buy this , hoping tat he will drink more water becos e water bottle is printed wif "Thomas & Friends".
He was nt at home when i reached.
But his parents were about to go over his childcare centre to fetch him.
I tagged along as his parents asked to.
His childcare centre was at Blk 480 , Dar's old house.
I was so anxious to see him.
At e door , he saw us.
Ran over and shouted " Daddy , Daddy".
So cute and sweet of him.
He didnt grow much from e last time i saw him.
I missed him so much tat i wanna to giv him a hug when i saw him.
But he was nt wearing his pants. lol.
He juz wet his pants a few min ago b4 we reached.
Out he comes, i wanna to carry him.
I looked at him , he looked back at me too.
But e look he give me was weird.
I called him, asked him over to let me hug.
Yet..
Sadly, he dare not.
He couldnt recongise me.
Is it cos we have nt meet up for sometimes or cos of my new hairstyle , i was wondering.
At tat moment, i was realli sad.
Y did u forget me? My dear boy.
Back to his hse's car park, all of a sudden he come over to my side and wanna to hold hands wif me.
I was so shocked and happy.
Afterall , he did nt forget me , juz tat he need sometime to recall who i m .
Holding his little hand walking in e carpark , he called me "Jie Jie".
I was realli happy , nothing else except happy.
Back his house, he was asked to wash his feets.
He walked into e toilet while keep looking back at me.
I noe, i noe y he do so.
He was afraid tat i will go off when he go to e toilet.
Hahas, so smart of him.
Kneel down & hugged him in e living room
I somehow feel heartache, veri weird feeling which i never had.
He had lose some weight , i can see.
I bet he is nt used to e life in childcare.
And it was true.
His mum told me tat he refused to wake up every monring and refused to wear his sch uniform too.
He even cried for hours on e first day of school.
His parents sure feel heartache too.
Just like my family and i do.
Y?
Sometimes i wonder..
Y wanna change his lifestyle ?
Y wanna send him over to a childcare centre?
Y we wanna to move hse?
So many "whys".
Is there a possibility tat his parents might ask us to take care of him and his sister again?
If Ah Boy continues to be like this, refusing to go sch , always cry and throw temper?
We realli missed him.
Our whole family do.
I give him e bottle which i buy for him.
He smiled and say " Two Two" , e sound of e train.
Watching him smiling , i feel happy too , so weird.
He say thanks to me and he carry e bottle around refused to keep it.
After feeding him some water , watching him running around , i feel so sad when i left.
In e lift alone , i realli feel so sad , and many thoughts were running in my mind.
If only, if only we can get to take care of him again , hw great it will be, seriously.
Shed a few tears when i went back to arcade to find dar.
After tat we went for dinner.
Back to Yishun..
We went for a movie at 7 plus.
Watched " Love Matters".
It was a so so movie nia.
But e moral of e story realli brings a meaning.
It said , " Those who don hav love yearn for love , while those who hav love don noe hw to cherish love ".
Quite true.
Human are all like this.
When is there for u , u wont noe hw to cherish.
When it is gone onli then u regret.
After movie , we went and do some shopping.
Dar buy his jeans for new year.
After tat, we went back to dar's hse.
Spend e night over at his place.
Labels: If only he could be taken care by us again.. :(
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