Monday, June 15, 2009 ; 5:34 PM {♥}
Sat , reaached home , didnt sleep.
Instead , on maple & play wif Dar & help mum to dl her shows too.
Managed to take a short nap (1 hr plus) before i go down to Hougang wif parents.
Go hougang for? O.o
My father's godfather's funeral.
We were asked to pray and follow wat e priest were doing.
Rounds and rounds , walking a circle around e wake.
As i was walking , i was thinking something else in my mind.
I had so far been to 2funerals only , this was obviously e 2nd one.
Thinking to this point , i realised there are more to come.. I don mind bad or wat but seriously there are still many more funerals i have to attend in time to come.
Both sides grandparents are still alive , my "tai ma" is also still alive.
My dad's godfather's children n grandchildren , most of them were crying.
My mum cried as well on e day when his body was burn to ashes.
I didnt drop a tear , cos i wasnt close to him but thinking of this , i wonder hw sad i will be it's my close one ?
Suddenly , i feel tat life is so fragile.
No one noes wat will happen tml?
Anyone can die anytime anywhere and for any reasons.
When will it be my turn?
Will i get to live to an old age?
So, i have to cherish everyday and everyone. =(
E whole funeral make me feel so...
Wat if it is my mum?
I m really afraid. So mum , can u live on for us no matter wat happens?
Even if u have any illness , promise me tat u will fight it , overcome it.
I noe y u refused to go to A&E , no matter hw painful u were feeling in e night.
I understood it.
Afraid tat u might nt have a chance to hold a party and celebrate wif mei on her bday.
I feel hw u feel too when u told me.
U said tat u have to hold a bday party for her juz in case u don hav a chance to. U said tat 1 yr is veri long for u. But mum, perhaps it is nt cancer ?
I refused to listen to uncle whenever he mention to me abt u and cancer in e car.
Sometimes i feel tat i m avoiding e issue too.
I hope 1st july can come asap & let everything turns out fine.
I'm yours & U're mine
