Isnt he cute ?

It is really ur smile tt brighten up my day and even my life.

He seemed sleepy isnt it?

Uploaded pictures of Ah Boy taken at northpoint top floor playground.

It has been sometime we nv really meet up wif him due to some family matters.
And this afternoon when i was still sleeping soundly in my room , mum came in , waking me and mei up , telling us tt Ah boy is coming over to our place.
He told his mum he missed us and make noise about wanna come find us, cant believe it.
So his parents drive him over to my place.
He ar .. He is forever e VIP in my family.
Hearing tt he is coming , we can giv up our sleep for him. We drag ourselves out of our cosy bed and hurry wash up b4 bringing him out to Northpoint.
Mum , Mei , Ah boy , BF and I , we all had macdonald , it was decided by ah boy.
He was telling me tt he wanna to eat macdonalds when we asked him wat he wants to have.
We got him happy meal and he was happy to have tt toy in his hands.

After our lunch , intend to bring him for a movie but due to nt enough time , we cancelled it.
We went up to e 2nd storey , intending to shop for my sis's school shoes but ah boy insisted on going up to 3rd storey and then following e 4th storey.
We were wondering where he is bringing us to ?

Upon reaching , we realised tt it was a playground , juz like e one he used to go at sembawang shopping centre.
He seemed so happy , wanting to go and play , mum didnt realli agree to it but i juz simply hack care , i bring him in and watch him play.
Took some pictures too. He was realli enjoying , when i see e smile on his face i feel it is worthy even though i m feeling tired and hot.
Finally managed to get him away from e playground by telling him we are going to e timezone (arcade).
We top up at least up to $15 and played games wif him , he was totally addicted to e throwing of balls game , we played wif him for more den 5rounds and we are complaining of shoulder ache while he is still happily enjoying hahas !
Surprisely , Dar who was wif us , he didnt complain a word.
I thought he will feel bored and complain but he didnt.

After all e games , we changed a few toys for him and off we go for our shopping =)
He saw some kids riding on a car , he was looking at it and i noe he wanna to sit one too. I got him one and he was happily riding on it , juz for $3.50/hr , he don have to walk and he wont feel bored when we are shopping , so.. y not?
However , i guess cos he was happily sitting on it , enjoying being push around , he looked so tired. I could feel his tiredness but y didnt he speak a word ? i then ask him to lie down and take a rest if he is tired. Juz after i finished my sentence , i saw him fast asleep.

I bet he had a tired day , after a rest in his toy car , we went for our dinner. Simple dinner but wif a lot of laughters.
Dar and i went off earlier after e dinner , i told ah boy i m going off and he was looking sad. He even asked me to bring him along , i feel so sad. Managed to convinced him , i went off after kissing him.

We will meet up again soon , my boy.
I had promised him a trip to Zoo after his holidays in korean. =)

Our Family Picture

Years ago , we went to Genting as a family. This picture was taken there. I was still in Primary School. I took this out from photo album years ago , cut it to e size tt can fit in my purse. Now, whenever i miss u , i will look at it.

You also keep e pic of all ur grandchildren and u in a frame , hanged it on e wall inside ur room. I wondered do u always look at it in e past whenever u miss us ?

The last time i ever talk to you , seeing u smile was on e day tai ma chu bing, saturday. I remebered sitting wif u in e same table. I m glad i get to eat wif u tt day. I didnt noe it will be e last time i can have my dinner wif u. Who will have thought of tt ?

I used to think u can live till at least 80yr old, used to think tt u will get to attend my wedding , drink tea and even get to see ur great grand children , carry them and watch them grow. Never did i expect u to leave us so early.

Your days in the ICU, i watched u improving a little everyday. You pulled through e 50% rate operation on friday night.

Saturday ~ We saw u being able to breathe on ur own , move ur head and open up ur mouth.Sunday ~ We saw u able to swallow ur saliva. Monday ~ We heard from nurse tt u opened up ur eyes though closes it immediately. Tuesday ~ Heart able to function already though ur mind don wan it to pump blood. How come u suddenly give up and leave us?

You left us all of a sudden, leaving us with memories only. We didnt get to see u e last time , talk to u e last time and hug u touch u for e veri last time.

To me , this whole episode is juz like a dream. But i wake up facing reality , e fact tt u are gone and will never be back. Everyday i feel like u are juz away from us for a trip , donno when u will be back but we are waiting. But at times , when i m fully awake , i face e fact tt u wont be back anymore. It is so unbearable.

Counting down 2days , and it is my 21st birthday. Months ago , i was still planning of getting a chalet no matter wat. I wanna to invite u and grandma , our big family over and relax , get away from e city and enjoy. But cos of tai ma's death , mum ask me to go on low profile. I still thought tt even there is no chalet , i still gt my bf , family , u and ah ma celebrating wif me. I noe u will celebrate wif me , like u did for almost every year. Never did i expect u nt being able to celebrate wif me this yr. Is my 21st birthday leh , hw can u miss it !! I wanna nth but YOU, if i can chose.

Talking abt birthday, i still thinking of getting a birthday cake this year, a very big and nice one for ur 70th birthday , cos mum told me chinese don celebrate 69th , will make it to 70th. I give u an ang bao only for last yr's birthday , but i buy ah ma a durian cake on her bday. So i thought of getting a big shou cake for u this year. Once again , never did i expect u nt being able to celebrate ur bday wif us this yr, nt able to see wat i have planned for u.

Why must u go and where are u now ? I have been telling myself u are nt coming back anymore but y cant i face e facts ! U are still alive in my heart , but i cant get to see u again , cant get to hold u again. All u left for us are memories only.

On e 7th night , did u come back to see us? I was told by didi and meimei tt in e middle of e night there is an insect , suddenly flying out from e back of e television , flying around in e room and stopped beside xj's laptop. Following that , flying towards e bed i m slping on and stopped there for sometime. Was it u , ah gong ? Was it u ? tt come back to see us ? I m sry if is u , cos i was realli slping soundly tt night.

Ah ma told me u nv go back and see u , did u realli nv go back ? Or it's juz tt u went back but u nv touch e bowl of rice ah ma left on e table? Did u also turn into an insect and fly in to see them like hw u came back to see us? I have many unanswered questions , can u ans me ?

Everything ended. U left us , we let go of u too. Though we cant bear each other , but we are apart. And wat can we live on wif are memories. Like i promised u in e hospital , i will take care of ah ma , but also at e same time i hope u will promise me too , tt u will go back and visit ah ma often , best is let her dream of u , tell her to live on happily.

I miss u , i really do.

Can u come to my dream tonight ?